my baby daddy

my husband. my baby daddy. he is just the best thing there is. i never knew i could feel so at peace, so much joy when seeing him with our sweet girl. he is:

talented-at-all-things
passionate
funny. so very funny
compassionate
caring
a hunk (this should be at the top of the list...)
a friend
a brother
a son
a daddy
a husband
a lover of golf
a lover of fishing
provider
protector

i could keep listing and listing all of the things that made me fall in love with him over and over again but it would probably make you gag. i say this all the time, in every card i write him, but i am truly so so so lucky to have him as ours. he is the best father. i thought i could imagine it, seeing him with her, but i couldn't even get close. when i hear the giggles and laughs, my heart melts to mush. he wears so many hats every single day and does an excellent job at all of them. he is our boss.

so heres to you baby daddy, happy fathers day!!!! i love you. we love you. all 3 of us ;)

18 months!

M is 18 months old. how on earth did this happen? they say the older you get, the faster time flies. and this is true. but what no one told me was once you have a baby, then time REALLY flies. like in the blink of an eye a week has gone by. or a month. i really cannot believe she is 18 months....my sweet baby.

at 18 months old, M:

• can hop on two feet. i've counted up to 11 times in a row
• loves to be a big helper. unloading one grocery item at a time, one dish out of the clean dishwasher at a time, one piece of clothing out of the dryer....anything she can help with, you bet she will be right there to do it
• she has so many words! she just started saying mama about a month ago and i LOVE it. pretty, milk, walk, out, shoe, hi dada, hi roo, hi mama, hi gigi, hi pop and 100 other words and phrases that all sounds like japanese/spanish/german. her vocabulary is growing everyday
• wants to have her boo-boo's kissed all better. 17 times
• gets grumpy as soon as she hears dinner begin to cook. she will continue to be a grumpers until she is in her highchair with food in her mouth. every night without fail. 
• could eat all. day. long. seriously
• loves to help wash herself in the bath. and loves the bath
• loves her friends we have made at mommy and me. i like the mommy friends i have made too :)
• waves hello to anyone and everyone in every store
• absolutely loves being dirty. she could spend all day outside digging in the dirt and playing in roo's water bowl

this list could go on and on. we love you sweet Mila, you are the light of our life, our dream come true!!

and now we wait: part 2

embryo transfer was a success! i have two embryos in my belly, floating around looking for a comfy spot. hopefully they've found exactly the best spot because it's going to be a long 9 months!

and now we wait until next wednesday for the pregnancy test. this is going to be the longest wait of my life. i am not a waiter. i take a pregnancy test every day for two weeks. that is just me. good thing i married a patient man who waits.

and now we wait: part 1

yesterday could have been the longest day of my life. a 12 hour trip. left at 8 am, got home at 8 pm. and all of it but about 3 hours was driving. ew. how do you live in LA? that is the question. 45 minutes to go through 3 green lights. really. awful. boss man handled it wonderfully while i was yelling at him, ok, not yelling, but loudly suggesting, he move over, then move back, drive slower, no drive faster, stoppppp!!!!!! that is how most of the drive to Beverly Hills went. home was much better.

we arrived at the ART center to have my eggs retrieved and i immediately was in tears. what if i ovulated early? what if i don't wake up? these feelings are probably normal but i am a worrier. boss calls me wcs-worst case scenario. and thats all i did the entire way there. from the moment i woke up. wcs. sorry lover :( well i woke up and the procedure went great. i even got some lovely pain meds that knocked me right out for a quick nap!

7 eggs were retrieved and doc called me this morning to inform me that 6 were healthy and 4, maybe 5, were healthy growing embryos!!! i have 6 children. ha. that is so wild. i have one amazing little girl at home (napping thank god) and 5 little embryo babies growing in Beverly Hills. ahhh life is good. let's just hope they don't get used to that lifestyle while they enjoy their 5 night stay in the posh ART center....

we head back down next Wednesday for the embryo transfer. he will pick the healthiest two embryos to transfer and then we get to come home! a week and half after that we will take a pregnancy test and pray to the gods, old and new (do you watch game of thrones?), that i am pregnant (with twins!) ssshhhh, don't tell boss that i am hoping for two :) he may faint. 

part 2 after Wednesday !

tomorrow's the day

i think it's a good idea to apologize ahead of time for my almost always tmi. too much info. it's who i am. in every story. i am not shy. so, i'm sorry in advance.

we went to the dr yesterday for an ultrasound to measure my eggs. and once again i was very tempted to do the happy dance half naked. and i once again waited until the doc left the room...but it was even harder this time! my eggs were perfect size. all TEN of them. yes, 10. (insert crazy happy dance here) i couldn't have been happier. so, tomorrow we are off to Redondo beach for the day to have my eggs harvested. after that, they will immediately be fertilized, embryo's will grow and next Wednesday we will be off to Redondo again for the embryo transfer.

and a side note: today was a needle free day. yesssssssss. the first in over 30.

 we had lunch with Nonie and Aunt Christine last week. it was great to see them...it doesn't happen enough! m did great at lunch but i am realizing that the more people around, the less she wants to be in her highchair. she wants to be out and about waving hello.

 saturday we went the Festival of the Arts with Melanie and Elsie. it was so much fun! the weather was perfect, there were tons of activities for the kids and Elsie and M pretty much have a blast anywhere together.

last night we celebrated my great grandpa's 97th birthday. seeing that side of the family is always special because it doesn't happen very often. and did you catch that....M has a great great grandpa. 5 generations. that is truly a miracle.

green light for egg making

we went to the dr this morning for an ultrasound of my ovaries and so boss could learn how to give me my next series of injections. i was nervous. the kind of nervous where you have stomach cramps and feel like you may very well poop your pants. tmi. sorry.

the doc checked my ovaries and said what i was praying for, "your ovaries look perfect, ready for the next step." YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS. was all i could think. i wanted to jump off the table half naked and do that happy dance. but i didn't. thought i'd save the doc that show...and did it as soon as he left :) i was so thrilled. my next thought, but wait...you mean now boss gets to stab me in the ass with a needle....oh man. i wasn't ready. doc gave us the run down, used my behind like map, showed boss all the correct places and not correct places. then it was time. i leaned on the table with my pants pulled down, baring my booty for the hub and doc. count of three....and stab. and to my amazement, it didn't hurt. at. all. way to go husband! you are a professional shot giver! i was so so so relieved. 

so now we do the repronex for a week to cause egg growth, have another ultrasound to measure my eggs. if they measure well, we will be off to redondo beach to have them harvested and make embryos!

i can't believe i may be preggers in just short of two weeks. woop!

our first family camp trip

we just got home from our first family camping trip and it was so much fun! we were able to take my in-laws motor home (this being THE ONLY perk to it sitting my backyard for 9 months....) which was not a really good idea because now i am thinking "tent camping? what's that?" oh well. maybe one more motor home trip and then back to the cots and camp stoves for us. but i still love that camping too :)

we went to Morro Bay State Park for more of a stay-cation. we have camped at the lake so many times and it was going to be hot hot hot so we opted for the chilly weather of morro bay. and boy was it chilly. yesterday the high was maybe 58 and we were freezing! our fire kept us warm but have you ever camped with a toddler? there is no sitting by the fire. or relaxing. we were chasing and running and playing and catching our crazy girl.

we went for an early coffee, on a walk, to the park, to dinner, out for a cinnamon roll, took a long nap, hit some golf balls, made smores, played on the golf course and just had the best time.

i love my family

 you know, just relaxing on the table

 her first smore

 watching and learning to roll like Roo :)

 so happy!

i'm pretty sure we are the cutest. family. ever. 

ps-setting your camera for 50 photographs on continuous timer could be the best way to get at least one good picture. i propped my lens on my cell phone and we tickled and laughed and got this amazing shot. christmas card worthy i'd say!